Do You Notice This Pattern In You?
There’s something I’ve been noticing more and more…and I’ve definitely seen it in myself too over the years.
It’s not loud.
It doesn’t feel like a “problem.”
In fact, it can look really responsible on the surface.
It looks like:
Patience.
Timing.
Waiting until things feel clearer or safer before making a move.
And I want to be really honest here… those things absolutely have their place.
But underneath that… there can sometimes be something else happening.
A quiet hesitancy to fully step forward in an area of life where a level of responsibility feels unfamiliar… or a bit too big in that moment.
Not because you’re incapable or because you don’t know what to do.
But because some part of you doesn’t yet feel fully safe to lead yourself there.
So instead of choosing… you wait.
And while waiting can feel neutral, even wise at times…
life doesn’t actually pause with you.
It keeps moving.
So you move with it.
Responding.
Adjusting.
Managing.
Cleaning up what’s already unfolded.
And over time, this can quietly turn into a feeling of:
“I don’t know how I ended up here again…”
or
“This isn’t quite what I wanted, but I guess I’ll make it work.”
I’ve been there.
There were seasons in my life where I looked like I had things together on the outside.
I was showing up.
I was active in life.
People would even say things like “you seem so happy and healthy” or “you’ve got it all together.”
And in many ways… I was functioning well.
But in certain areas of my life… I wasn’t fully stepping forward.
I told myself I was waiting.
Waiting for clarity, the right timing or to feel more ready.
But underneath that, there was something deeper I hadn’t fully acknowledged yet.
There were areas where I didn’t feel fully resourced in myself to take full ownership of what I actually wanted.
And I also had a story running that life was meant to look a certain way…and anything outside of that felt uncertain or even risky.
So I stayed in “wait”.
I said yes when I meant no.
I stayed in situations longer than I needed to.
I chose what felt familiar instead of what felt true.
Until I started noticing the cost.
Not in a dramatic way… but slowly.
Situations I didn’t consciously choose kept repeating.
My energy was being used to manage things I hadn’t intentionally created.
And there was this quiet frustration underneath everything…like something wasn’t quite shifting, even though I was trying. God knows I was trying!
And eventually I reached a point where I realised:
If I want something different, I have to choose differently.
Not all at once or perfectly… but intentionally.
And that changed everything over time.
Because once you can see where you’re not choosing, you can start choosing again.
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Where in your life are you currently waiting, instead of choosing?
Message with me if you could use a little help with this.
Angela Joy x